JeOpARDi

I love a question that can not be answered.
I wonder how many people would go to my funeral.
Can my deepest desires come true if i will it so?
Each human is out for themselves.
Should I hold on to what we have in common?
Why should I?
Should I actually do what I should or want?
You are you and I am me.
We live our lives separately.
What would be the consequence if i don't
care about what happens to you?
I do not hate you. I do not love you.
If you are there or if you are not there
it is of no consequence to me.
Will i be punished if i do not care?
Who will punish me?
I love to be alone sometimes.
No country. No surname. No race. No allegiance.
The simple action of living and being human
is overwhelming and enough to contemplate.
Never mind my interaction with another
human specimen like myself.
Should I share my presence with you?
Should I share my humaness?
If i do not benefit from this connection should that matter?
I want to lay down and open my eyes.
My joy is the shade of blue in the sky.
I am uplifted by the clouds that glide by.
The effect colors have on me is exciting.
Is it my obligation to do anything more than this?
Do I owe you something for what you have done for me
even though I never asked for anything from you?
What do you want from me?
Do you dare say what it really is?
Are you conscience of it or are your desires
hidden and locked away even from you?
You may resent me for what I am saying
but i do not know if i have to care if you do or do not?
I rather not care but my emotions are so relative
that I can not be sure myself
of what I rather do, feel, say or see.
So what does all this mean?
I have not the slightest idea but
I love a question that can not be answered.