I love a question that can not be answered.
I wonder how many people would go to my funeral.
Can my deepest desires come true if i will it so?
Each human is out for themselves.
Should I hold on to what we have in common?
Why should I?
Should I actually do what I should or want?
You are you and I am me.
We live our lives separately.
What would be the consequence if i don't
care about what happens to you?
I do not hate you. I do not love you.
If you are there or if you are not there
it is of no consequence to me.
Will i be punished if i do not care?
Who will punish me?
I love to be alone sometimes.
No country. No surname. No race. No allegiance.
The simple action of living and being human
is overwhelming and enough to contemplate.
Never mind my interaction with another
human specimen like myself.
Should I share my presence with you?
Should I share my humaness?
If i do not benefit from this connection should that matter?
I want to lay down and open my eyes.
My joy is the shade of blue in the sky.
I am uplifted by the clouds that glide by.
The effect colors have on me is exciting.
Is it my obligation to do anything more than this?
Do I owe you something for what you have done for me
even though I never asked for anything from you?
What do you want from me?
Do you dare say what it really is?
Are you conscience of it or are your desires
hidden and locked away even from you?
You may resent me for what I am saying
but i do not know if i have to care if you do or do not?
I rather not care but my emotions are so relative
that I can not be sure myself
of what I rather do, feel, say or see.
So what does all this mean?
I have not the slightest idea but
I love a question that can not be answered.
Sunday, February 3, 2008
Heavenly Chords
I was born on concrete
Dust and dirt were under your feet
Abandoned baby carriages litter my street
Black slush, snow and sleet
Cracked blocks map my path
Crushed coffee cups, beer bottle caps
Are the countries on those cracked street maps
Northern to Roosevelt, you do the math
A long way when you're walking
Even longer when you're talking
The wind makes your skin feel frost bit
So you continue in silence like a candle unlit
Your head faces the moving floor
Above you sneakers on wires galore
They long to live, to be so much more
But there they hang on heavenly chords
Can you tell me what I do see?
A morning trek that seems suspect
Too many things that I detect
To be out of place and unordinary
But please tell me if I'm wrong
For I do not wish it so
A habitat where I can not grow
I can not stay for long
Beyond I see square giants
Many have become my clients
However through much defiance
One can never stop the violence
Each day I am under attack
The daily grind makes me grain
A poison which enters my brain
Defense to this I surely do lack
I am required by the powers that be
To prolong this daily journey
Despite what I feel inside
Capitalism makes me abide
To the rules and regulations
Of this glorious and rich nation
So who am I to complain?
One who conquers or someone to tame
To me the concrete grew from the ground
And natural energy will always be found
This view I hold from my birth
That all is free and forever on this earth
But you know better than I ever will
You've seen those who savagely kill
The ground once so green and pristine
Now a gridlock of steel and beams
Hold my hand and close your eyes
Imagine the world you once held inside
I will see through your vision, I beseech
A forever freedom I will one day reach
© copyright 2007 Esperanza Urbaez
Dust and dirt were under your feet
Abandoned baby carriages litter my street
Black slush, snow and sleet
Cracked blocks map my path
Crushed coffee cups, beer bottle caps
Are the countries on those cracked street maps
Northern to Roosevelt, you do the math
A long way when you're walking
Even longer when you're talking
The wind makes your skin feel frost bit
So you continue in silence like a candle unlit
Your head faces the moving floor
Above you sneakers on wires galore
They long to live, to be so much more
But there they hang on heavenly chords
Can you tell me what I do see?
A morning trek that seems suspect
Too many things that I detect
To be out of place and unordinary
But please tell me if I'm wrong
For I do not wish it so
A habitat where I can not grow
I can not stay for long
Beyond I see square giants
Many have become my clients
However through much defiance
One can never stop the violence
Each day I am under attack
The daily grind makes me grain
A poison which enters my brain
Defense to this I surely do lack
I am required by the powers that be
To prolong this daily journey
Despite what I feel inside
Capitalism makes me abide
To the rules and regulations
Of this glorious and rich nation
So who am I to complain?
One who conquers or someone to tame
To me the concrete grew from the ground
And natural energy will always be found
This view I hold from my birth
That all is free and forever on this earth
But you know better than I ever will
You've seen those who savagely kill
The ground once so green and pristine
Now a gridlock of steel and beams
Hold my hand and close your eyes
Imagine the world you once held inside
I will see through your vision, I beseech
A forever freedom I will one day reach
© copyright 2007 Esperanza Urbaez
Wise Words From a Friend.AMEN
"I know exactly how you're feeling. You're not crazy. It's not stupid thinking. If you only knew what goes on in my brain, but the word of God is clear "Be anxious for nothing but in everything through prayer and supplication make your requests known to the Lord" Of course I am paraphrasing.
Also how can we add another day to our lives by worry and being full of anxiety? You're just before a big puzzle and it seems scattered all over the place but this is when we need to allow God to step in and create peace. For the peace of the Lord surpasses all understanding. Many are the plans in a man's heart but the Lord directs them.
Again we're back to the word PASSION. You need to find that and you will only find it when we enter into intimacy with our Father. We're too used being in the driver's seat and we put God there and then we take him out. The steps of a good man or woman are ordered by the Lord. The Lord will give us the desires of our heart but we first need to let him know what they are. If we don't know because there are so many options that's when we need to pray for clarity, a decision making anointing for the Lord to enter into our thought life." - Poignant and powerful
© copyright 2007 Esperanza Urbaez
Also how can we add another day to our lives by worry and being full of anxiety? You're just before a big puzzle and it seems scattered all over the place but this is when we need to allow God to step in and create peace. For the peace of the Lord surpasses all understanding. Many are the plans in a man's heart but the Lord directs them.
Again we're back to the word PASSION. You need to find that and you will only find it when we enter into intimacy with our Father. We're too used being in the driver's seat and we put God there and then we take him out. The steps of a good man or woman are ordered by the Lord. The Lord will give us the desires of our heart but we first need to let him know what they are. If we don't know because there are so many options that's when we need to pray for clarity, a decision making anointing for the Lord to enter into our thought life." - Poignant and powerful
© copyright 2007 Esperanza Urbaez
OMEGA
Through eyes of truth it is clear
The time is near, it is here
I hear the bridge leading
to the climactic Chorus
Can you hear it?
A sweet harmony along with tragedy
But both can no longer coincide
one cannot exist with the other
The pressure is mounting along the levee
at any moment it will burst
and out will gush the glory it held back
only the faithful heart will rise
the wicked will sink in despair
so we must all prepare
for what is to come.
Hurry hurry hurry
there are no more delays
listen to the earth
listen to its pain
groaning and moaning
and screeching for help
we are sleeping and living
in a world that is not real
when we arise
would we be surprised
at the place we are in
if we keep bathing in sin
what are we to think
of our future beyond this world
after gruesome evil has been unfurled
by our lies, greed and addiction
lust, hypocrisy, and corruption
will this become a revelation.
Apocalyptic times bring apocalyptic measures
before our eyes we see horrific treasures
we were not capable of imagining before
so what does the future have in store
for us, humankind, and our fate?
Can we change the outcome before its too late?
I'd rather be safe now than be sorry later
So I close my eyes and speak to our Creator
The only solace in this havoc of a place
The only way out; the only saving grace
I implore you to do as I do
What I am saying is true
I tell because I love you as a friend
Hopefully soon I will see you at the end.
© copyright 2007 Esperanza Urbaez
The time is near, it is here
I hear the bridge leading
to the climactic Chorus
Can you hear it?
A sweet harmony along with tragedy
But both can no longer coincide
one cannot exist with the other
The pressure is mounting along the levee
at any moment it will burst
and out will gush the glory it held back
only the faithful heart will rise
the wicked will sink in despair
so we must all prepare
for what is to come.
Hurry hurry hurry
there are no more delays
listen to the earth
listen to its pain
groaning and moaning
and screeching for help
we are sleeping and living
in a world that is not real
when we arise
would we be surprised
at the place we are in
if we keep bathing in sin
what are we to think
of our future beyond this world
after gruesome evil has been unfurled
by our lies, greed and addiction
lust, hypocrisy, and corruption
will this become a revelation.
Apocalyptic times bring apocalyptic measures
before our eyes we see horrific treasures
we were not capable of imagining before
so what does the future have in store
for us, humankind, and our fate?
Can we change the outcome before its too late?
I'd rather be safe now than be sorry later
So I close my eyes and speak to our Creator
The only solace in this havoc of a place
The only way out; the only saving grace
I implore you to do as I do
What I am saying is true
I tell because I love you as a friend
Hopefully soon I will see you at the end.
© copyright 2007 Esperanza Urbaez
hErE and nOw
When I look outside my window
I see the world for how it could be
the suffering and devastation
is all a hazy calamity.
When I look into your eyes
Your soul and true self come through
the pain and hurt you feel
is all obstructed from view.
Your smile would return
If you could see it all through me
The cage you live in would burn
and like a bird you would be free.
Through the trrenches you have fought
and now the battle has left you bitter
Day to day you live and wonder
When situations will get better.
If you could only see with green eyes
Like the day that you were born
When the world was full of wild wonders
and nothing was ravaged or ever torn.
You would see all problems disappear
What you envision would become reality
Natural light would befall on you
and you would be filled with tranquility.
When the world has darkened all from sight
And not even a ray of light can be found
Close your eyes and create the hope
That will one day become the here and now.
© copyright 2007 Esperanza Urbaez
I see the world for how it could be
the suffering and devastation
is all a hazy calamity.
When I look into your eyes
Your soul and true self come through
the pain and hurt you feel
is all obstructed from view.
Your smile would return
If you could see it all through me
The cage you live in would burn
and like a bird you would be free.
Through the trrenches you have fought
and now the battle has left you bitter
Day to day you live and wonder
When situations will get better.
If you could only see with green eyes
Like the day that you were born
When the world was full of wild wonders
and nothing was ravaged or ever torn.
You would see all problems disappear
What you envision would become reality
Natural light would befall on you
and you would be filled with tranquility.
When the world has darkened all from sight
And not even a ray of light can be found
Close your eyes and create the hope
That will one day become the here and now.
© copyright 2007 Esperanza Urbaez
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